I was sitting in B & N listening to a group of people discuss the plans for an upcoming wedding and I got to thinking.
Why don’t I have Pro Life people getting together for discussions on stopping abortion?
After all the simple answers went through my head I came to the right one.
I am not trying to put together a group.
This is way to honest for a Tuesday... but it is true.
So how to plan this out?
Do I post in the paper?...no.. I am scared of who might show up.
Ask at church? .... maybe.
Send out a Facebook invite? Maybe there are a lot of Christian on there!
Look on Craiglist for a group with the same interest? noooo.
What about the people that come on Saturday .... no they are already there.
What about the pregnancy center? ... maybe
What about my neighbors? no
“because if I gave an honest Tuesday answer ---
I am a little scared and
maybe I will lose what few friends I have in the neighborhood.”
And if that is the case just how much do I really want to help save babies?
Am I ready to lose all in order to save the helpless?
If I am scared to ask around to some neighbors, then how can I expect a young frightened girl to trust me when the first time she sees me is on a Saturday morning when she is going in for the hardest thing she has ever done?
*my 4 closes neighbors know and have been invited*
Of course after all this mind blowing thinking I am back at the beginning.
“When all else fails PRAY” I should be praying first not last in my search.
So much for spiritual growth!
I pray God will bring together a group of support for me. Just a few close friends who want to be a part of this last line of protection. For that is truly what we are. We are the last people, calling out to try and save that baby. We are the last voice that says I love you to her precious baby. I know that sounds odd, but some of the women do not believe they have a baby yet. We are the last ones to beg the Mommies to stop and let her baby live. And on that day at that moment we cry for her baby. I know that later in a quiet moment she will grieve her baby’s death and her part in it.
The emotion of what takes place every week needs to be healed in prayer. The stress of knowing that when a lady goes in a baby dies can only be handled in prayer. Every week a part of me breaks as I watch babies die. I do not want to burn out. I do not want to run away from the truth. I want to be a fighter for God and His creation. I am use to God & I winning. But seeing this over and over is tough. Asking God to show me if I am making a difference seems petty and selfish. For who am I, to think I am so special that I am making any difference? What I am is a whining little girl. I am wanting my Father to tell me, I am so special, that He will give me instant gratification. That just because I joined this group of Pro Life Warriors we will see results every Saturday.
I need to pray more.
I need to stay strong.
I need to stay brave.
And I need to turn to my Lord.
Please if you know of an abortion clinic in your area, go there and say a prayer to our Lord for the women who have came, who will come and for all the babies.
You are a Christian woman with a beautiful heart and a deep passion for protecting the unborn. You are serving in the capacity that God placed you to serve and you are making a difference. You just may not realize how much of one until you are walking the streets of gold. Make sure that you don't get caught up in results...because if one baby's mother changes her mind...if one life is saved because you said "yes" to God's prompting in your heart... all of the service is worth the sacrifices you are making. You are sacrificing your time, your strength, and your life for a grand purpose. Stay in it. Pray. Pray for like minded friends and then expect an answer. Ask for help in deciding which strategies are best. Expect that God will use you mightily. He will. I just know it. :)
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